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YALL Festival, Migraines, and getting your Brain Numbed

The YALL Festival is in Charleston this weekend. I was desperate to go and mingle with my favorite YA authors and/or future colleagues. That’s not going to happen.I have something called Chronic Migraine Syndrome. At first, it was having one or two migraines a month. Then, it turned into having three or more migraines a week. Luckily, I've been able to control them over the past three months with Sphenopalatine (SPG) Ganglion Blocks. I went from having migraines more than twice a week to none at all. It only took 30 minutes and I was fixed. It all depends on your migraine type and is usually reserved for the severest of the severe, but it is worth looking into. Nerve blocks are a magical thing. They numb the area of the brain the causes the migraines to happen. The method that was used with me can be seen at

Right now, I my doctor has to resubmit the information to my insurance company, letting them know everything is working. Like I said, they don't do these blocks for just anyone. I’m currently a prisoner to my own body as my block wears off. It’s painful, frustrating, and not fair. I can’t give up. I can’t quit no matter how much I want to. I’m working in an unfulfilling job I don’t like and that causes more migraines than I’d like to admit. In a moment of feeling put down one too many times, it came to me; I am a champion. I have to get parts of my brain numbed just to be able to function at the same level as everyone else. I am not weak because I was crippled by pain and circumstance. How many people could have made it this far?

Kiss my foot. I am a daggum superwoman.

Things are just on the edge of changing. I don’t care if anyone out there likes Status: Positive or even wants to publish it. If I can make if through all 50,000 words without dying or clawing at my nerve center with an ice pick, then this will be a win for me. I know how it feels. I know how it is to be told you are sick, you’re not good enough. I know what it is like to be “diseased” and looked down upon because of the way you were born (not just migraines here). It’s not fair. It’s not right. It needs to change. If looking at things from a different angle can open some eyes, then I swear to you all that I will fight.

There is no giving up.

Migraine. My book ain't got time for that. NaNoWriMo problems. Relpax take me away.


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